Okay, okay guys… Soo I’ve slightly changed my schedule…I hope you haven’t missed me too much. Monday and Wednesday you will be getting some written wisdom from yours truly and the rest of the week you can catch up with my YouTube Channel whoop.
Enough of this though…let’s get to the point! Right I’ve noticed I haven’t really spoken about a personal experience and an epiphany I had due to it in a while… soo here it is…
The other day me and 2 of my best friends went to the Double Bill Midnight screening of The Hunger Games – Mockingjay. What can I say… it certainly was the perfect girls night out… Pizza Express Dinner with Free Proseco Bottle (yup that’s just how I roll haha) followed by the two films. Seriously…super duper fun night!!
Well…when telling someone about this, that person in question laughed about us ‘losers’ in a mean way (you know I mean I will laugh to take the piss out of you…sometimes…just me really lol…but never will I be mean in that way). And then here is what happened… I noticed how I felt embarrassed for a moment..I felt uncomfortable…and I kinda wanted to hide…
But then a short moment after I got super angry with myself…(I get angry with myself a lot lol). I thought to myself: ‘What actually is your issue? Why do you even care what other people think? And who are they to judge something that made you happy in the first place?’
I mean seriously exactly that…What even was my problem?? Well here is the thing… I might come across as super confident and what not (Jesus I try super hard haha), but I have my insecurities just like anyone else…and I doubt myself a lot of times…BUT the thing is I have learned to overcome those moments of doubt and to refocus on my Whys. What I am trying to say is that I am my biggest critic in the world…but I am also my biggest supporter (God I’m telling you it’s hard to balance the two such big Egos haha).
And so I refocused…and I once again questioned myself why I would ever let someone else take something which made me happy and make me feel weird/bad about it? Why would anyone do that?
Now the truth of the matter is… a hell of a lot of us let other people do that.. So let me tell you this: No one in this world has the right to judge what you enjoy and what makes you happy (okay, okay maybe it that’s something illegal then I say they should…haha). Jesus if you’re in love with Justin Bieber even if your a 30 year-old woman than who the fuck cares?? Who has the right to judge?? Just go ahead and listen to his latest album done. Who is to judge how much I enjoyed the Hunger Games series? Bloody NO ONE…
Let’s be honest anyone who does judge us on our “guilty pleasures” (jesus why do we even call them guilty pleasures…we shouldn’t feel guilty about them..) isn’t worth any of my time anyway. If you are in anyway genuinely interested in me as in ME! than you gotta live with it and sometimes even enjoy it as much as I do!
So long so fine, stay sexy and see you soon.
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